Sorry I took the last cold Coke in the fridge. I was thirsty.

I was driving with my friend and his newly wed wife in the back seat. I wasn't drunk and i didn't speed yet I lost control.. and I drove the car down the hill. She had a broken bone and underwent backbone surgery. Backbone surgery patients don't recover 100%. I wasn't hurt , my friend was with me in the front seat had minor injuries. I was with them for the week in the hospital but then I came back. I gave financial support but I could never muster the courage to face them again. I am so sorry to cause them so much pain and I am so sorry for not being able to meet them after I came back from the hospital. My friend hates me to the core and his hatred kills me. I am so very sorry. I send him emails with all my apologies but what's the point. It will not cure his wife. Will I ever be forgiven?